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2 Weeks…. What a Difference!

The paragraph below was a portion of a post I drafted exactly 2 weeks ago after a very tough day. I decided not to publish it because some family members thought it was a little too “raw”.  It was exactly how I was feeling. Looking back I’m so encouraged in the progress Luke has made and the outlook I now have. I still have low days, but when I think of where we have come from, anything is possible. Because of Gods supernatural strength and peace in our lives, along with all of your support, we have in return been able to support Luke. We so appreciate all the prayers and sincere love we have felt from all you!  Being at the accident a couple minutes after it happened, seeing what I saw, hearing what the doctors told us when we got to UVA, compare that to Luke’s condition now, can only be described as miraculous! No one can convince me otherwise. To God be the Glory! What’s so amazing and cool is I don’t believe he’s done!…..

Written 7/23….. Everything changed July 6th. I’ve had to think of the verse: “Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes” (James 4: 14) Each morning Lindsey and I still find it hard to believe what has happened. When I get a good nights rest (which hasn’t been often), when I wake, things seem normal for a split second. Then I look around and I’m not at home and everything hits me all over again. We are trying to be strong, and we are believing God is in control but this stinks!  What we hate the most though is watching every day what Luke has to go through. He gets pricked for blood, poked with a catheter for urine, fed through a tube directly to his stomach,  has to wear a halo that’s fastened by screws into his skull, the halo vest has to be worn at all times, so it can’t get wet, which makes it very difficult to bathe him. (The halo makes everything very difficult.)  He’s been so heavily medicated that they expect it to take weeks to wean him off without him suffering from withdrawal.  At this point, Luke cannot sit up, stand, or walk although they expect him to as he becomes stronger.  He has to be moved from the bed to a wheelchair every time he goes anywhere.  This list could go on and on.  He’s still unable to talk or cry so knowing what he needs or wants is very difficult. Everything we take for granted, and what Luke use to make look so easy is very difficult or impossible for him. The day to day grind is very difficult and very tiresome.

It’s awesome how far Luke has progressed in all areas in just 2 weeks!  So much has changed! We are praying that through God the gain will outweigh all the pain, which at this time seems impossible. Even if it means not seeing what is gained until eternity.

-Ben

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August 7, 2009 - Posted by | Uncategorized

16 Comments »

  1. Thank you, Ben! I appreciate the glimpse that you give us into your heart. It allows us to weep with you, when you weep and rejoice with you, when you rejoice.

    Comment by John and Karen Barlow | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  2. Ben, Thank you so much for sharing in a very real way what you are experiencing. It is so real and is what your day to day is about right now. What you have shared puts things in perspective in a whole new way and brings even more light to Gods faithfulness and loving care in this situation. It will help us pray with even more empathy. Praying that each new day when you wake up you would quickly start to experience the pure love and strength the Father has for you. Thank you Father for Moving the mountains and continually wrapping your arms around this family. Sylvia Mehegan, Isaac’s MOM

    Comment by Isaac Mehegan | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  3. Luke is blessed to have you as a father! Maybe someday he’ll read these blogs and your honesty will help him remember these days and how the Lord brought him through this tough situation. 🙂

    Comment by Amy Wenger | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  4. Thanks Ben for sharing and being so honest about what you and Lindsey are going thru. Even though most of us are not there going thru this physically with you, our hearts and minds are there with you. Luke’s progress has been a miracle and could have only come from God’s healing touch.

    You and Lindsey and your kids mean so much to me. We will continue to pray for all of you.

    Jolene

    Comment by Jolene Shue | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  5. BEN YOU ARE SUCH A GREAT FATHER, WE GET EMOTIONAL EVERY TIME YOU WRITE. YOU ARE AMAZING, WE SEE ALOT OF YOU IN LUKE. HANG IN THERE WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU, LINDSEY LUKE AND CHIDREN, ALONG WITH THE WHOLE FAMILY. LUKE HAS COME A LONG WAY AND GOD IS GOOD, LUKE WILL COME ALL THE WAY. WE THANK GOD EVERY DAY FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE ALREADY, AND ASK FOR MORE. YOU JUST TAKE CARE. GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!
    GENE SMITH

    Comment by Gail Smith | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  6. Ben,
    Thank you for your honesty. I am in awe of God’s faithfulness to you and your precious family. We will not forget to pray, each and every day…Looking forward to a time and place when we can SEE you all and CELEBRATE WITH YOU!!

    “Heather

    Comment by Baker Family | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  7. We rejoice with you in the progress that Luke has made and continue to pray for healing both body, mind and spirit for the whole family!

    Comment by Jenn Jellum | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  8. what a difference just 2 weeks can make. we are so thankful
    for Luke’s hard work and determination. Luke needs to see his parents and family continue to be strong and dedicated for him so he continues to have the desire. We know it isn’t easy but we know that you will continue to be there through each and every movement throughout the day. You are wonderful parents and family! Luke is so lucky to have you in his life. Continue to stick together and be strong. No one knows why we are given life’s curves but we have to keep meet it head on and continue to move forward.

    Mt. Crawford Baseball League

    Comment by Mt. Crawford Baseball League | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  9. Ben (And Linds)–please don’t worry about being “too raw.” Don’t sugar coat anything. The more honest you are, the more healing can take place RIGHT NOW…and the more specific ways we, as your brothers and sisters, can pray for you! Thank you for sharing your heart. It’s time consuming, in the midst of all that you both are doing to care for Luke (and we thought the “newborn stage” was hard–this puts things into perspective, huh?)–yet you all continually take the time to update the community/supporters–THANK YOU!

    I know that 4 1/2 weeks seem like an eternity in all that you have endured….but, in the days you feel most worn out/perplexed/crushed–think of all that you HAVE, all that Luke HAS ACCOMPLISHED and where you’re heading, in such a short period of time. Look at his 8 years of life and how FAST that has flown by….while we’re struggling/battling with things, time seems to stand still….but in the long run, to endure all that you all are enduring, to get the results and MIRACLE of his life BACK…..it’s going to seem so “small” when this beautiful puzzle is put back together. So, lean on all those around you and let us know how to pray even more specifically for you and Lindsey-even if it means saying “Today stunk. I am homesick. I want our life back.” etc. You’ve seen how God has answered all the specifics for Luke, when you’ve shared them–how can we pray for YOU?

    I love you all and hope to one day meet your beautiful children. I can’t believe it’s been 8+ years since I’ve seen ya’ll!

    Comment by Jessi Cooper-Bowditch | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  10. Ben, you don’t know me, nor I … you. However I feel like I know your family through these blogs. I had the honor of meeting your father today as my daughter, 6 year old granddaughter, and I took food to your parent’s home. We go to Blue Ridge Church of Christ, and have been praying for Luke and all of you ever since the accident. It was such a pleasure talking with your Dad, and we all talked about the wonderful miracles that have already occurred. There will be many more miracles in Luke’s progress and he will soon be home running through the fields again. Please know we follow the blogs daily, and still pray everyday. Even my 6 year old granddaughter prays for Luke every night before going to bed. There will be tough days ahead, but feel the warmth of God’s loving arms surround you all.

    Comment by Debbie Thomas | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  11. Every single time someone asks me how Luke is doing as I give an update I am reminded of God’s power and our brokenness. Of His great mercy and love. That He redeemed us not freely, but at a price, at a price HE paid. He chose to be broken. I certainly cannot imagine what you are going through, but it gives me great comfort that He not only knows that you are in pain, but he himself has been broken, just as you and Luke have been broken, so who better to heal you?!! He knows AND has the power and love to accomplish it. I will continue to pray that He will complete this good work He has started!

    Comment by Beth and Bob Richardson | August 7, 2009 | Reply

  12. Luke,
    We had fun playing at the ball park in honor of you today. We all hope that you are feeling better and getting stronger each day. Along with so many others, we pray for you each night, so whenever you are feeling tired or discouraged, remember that your friends and family are praying! Rachel and Anna (and Emma) look forward to seeing you again soon!

    Comment by Goehner family | August 8, 2009 | Reply

  13. Thank you for sharing. It really does help us to pray more effectively and to carry your burden with you.
    Love and Prayers,
    Steve and Judy

    Comment by Judy Ponchot | August 8, 2009 | Reply

  14. Ben, No one would expect you to be in control of your feelings all the time. Even Jesus showed his anger in the temple. Thanks for posting,as it does help us be more specific in our prayers. We have all seen God do such a miraculous work in young Luke and it has been a privelege to be able to help in prayers for him and your family. We will continue to do that and as you said in your update; we are expecting the healing to get even beter, as God has much yet planned for Luke. We are so happy to hear that his vision keeps improving and we pray that his halo is doing what it needs to. We pray for Luke’s short term memory and I believe that will be healed also. We wear our bands as a reminder as the day goes by to always have a prayer on our lips and in our hearts. Have a wonderful Lords day and we will talk again soon.

    Love and prayers…Joe and Esther

    Comment by Esther Byler | August 9, 2009 | Reply

  15. Praise God Ben you have such a testimony, keep looking up. I’m sure God will carry you when your down and can hardly get up. I think of you guys often, its so hard to watch children go thru hurts as parents hurt right with them. Praise God for where he has brought Luke thus far. Iwill continue praying for all of ya.

    Comment by Mary Helmuth | August 9, 2009 | Reply

  16. Stay strong dear friends in Christ. God is holding Luke in His arms and will to continue to guide the physician’s hands.

    God Bless You All.

    Comment by Phyllis Harris | August 11, 2009 | Reply


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